I could be Don Camillo

With arms of steel

And a heart of gold

And a temper like boiling oil cascading from the battlements of my righteousness burning so hot that the Lord Himself shakes His head and laments my tempestuous moods

What a wonderful thing to be

What a shame I just have to be me

I could be Duffy Moon

With spirit indefatigable

And eyes of grey wisdom

And a mind that travels far away to lands that others can never know where fear is just a rumour and hope is a force of nature driving the good…

This piece was originally published May 10, 2011

And I used to be strong
And I used to be a man
But now I fold at your feet
Like a burning letter

I’m sitting in my car, late at night, watching the blood well from the lines I’ve just sliced into my arm, and I’m wondering just why I did it. In hindsight I’ll manufacture some kind of explanation, but in the moment all I can think of is, I’ve got to find a reason for someone to care.

And in the moment, I am out of my mind.


The sun’s coming up now over the ranges

I’m driving east and contemplating changes

Looking for a shady spot to sleep under some trees

And by the time I get…

I must admit I was surprised when you stepped into the ring

In all this time I never guessed that fisticuffs would’ve been your thing

But your first knocked all the wind out of me

And your second laid me flat

And from the canvas all I could manage to wheeze was

Who taught you to punch like that?

I’d sparred with you a little before, I thought I knew your moves

I thought that you and I agreed on what a punch is and what it proves

But when you rearranged my face

And put me on the mat

It’s been so long since darkness

Meant anything except a way to hide your tears

It takes a while to remember how

To feel something you haven’t felt in years

And if I could I’d forget almost everything I ever knew

But even in a earthquake there are some things still worth holding onto

Like popcorn lips and greatest hits

And driving home alone

Like sunshine eyes and honeyed lies

And pleasure I don’t have the guts to own

It won’t matter years from now which way I jump or how the balance tips

But I will die still holding…

If it’s dragons you want then it’s dragons you’ll get

It’s the fire you’ll feel on the back of your neck

It’s the thump of the wings you’ll hear in your sleep

It’s the smell of burnt flesh in your nostrils you’ll get

When you ask for the dragons to come to you

If it’s dragons you want it’s the smoke that you’ll breathe

It’s the screams that echo in the night when you stare

At the sky and beg it to forgive you

It’s the death-shadow that blocks out the sun

When you’re trying to forget what became of…

If I weren’t so fat, if I weren’t so ugly

If I weren’t so gross and if I weren’t so dumb

If I weren’t so spineless and boring and lazy

The legend lives on from Mar-a-Lago on down
Of the big boss who likes his suits roomy
They say that the boss never concedes a loss
When the polls of November turn gloomy
A huge orange boar weighed two-fifty pounds more
Than most presidents thought was healthy
That loose-haired tycoon was a pinpricked balloon
When the absentee ballots came early

He always had tried to boost American pride
No wonder he’d once won Wisconsin
His rallies, he told us, were bigger than most
No matter the time or the season
He’d served out one term and was still standing firm
When the first returns came…

It’s sad to be sad

And it’s bad to be mad

But I’m glad to have had

A chance to be bad

To be bad made me glad

But it…

You called me a gem and I shone

Like I never knew I could shine before

When you said love I knew what it meant

For the first time in my life

The first time I looked at you I saw everything I ever wanted

The last time I looked at you I saw it again

When you kissed me I felt sure I was worth my own life

When you touched my hand nothing could hurt me

When you were beside me I knew

The world would never defeat me, no matter how hard it tried

Because I had…

Ben Pobjie

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